Have you ever felt real pain? No, i am not talking about those random break ups (which you normally call heartbreaks), or your cat fights with your best friend, or you being ditched by someone. Have you ever felt real pain? Have you ever felt lonely? No? Let me tell you what real pain is and what loneliness is.
You know when it’s 3 am and there is a storm inside your head ; an ocean of feelings inside you ; tears waiting to come out ; and still you pretend as if nothing has happened and you pretend to stay strong. Whereas you know that from inside, you are already broken; and shattered into pieces. When you sit in front of a mirror and look at yourself, your scars, and your tears, and you realise that you are on the verge of letting go, and still you try to fight, well, my friend, that is pain. You know when you have to give up on something or someone and that something or someone is everything you want, and yet you have to give up on that; that, my friend, is pain.
You know it’s 3 am and you desperately want to talk to that someone and you can’t message that someone; for you know there is no point. Yes, that feeling, that is what you call loneliness. You know you have more than hundred contacts and yet no one to talk to – that is called loneliness. You know you are lonely when in this world of 7 billion people, you don’t even have a shoulder to rest your head upon. And you know you are lonely when when you have to pretend that you aren’t.
You know, you are lonely and you are in pain when it’s 3 am and you have the urge to write down whatever is going on inside you, and yet you can’t; for you know there are stories inside you which the pen doesn’t have the guts to pen down and the paper doesn’t have the strength to handle them.😩